Monday, December 6, 2010
another odd dream
dreamt about liza minneli last night...yeah....it's weird, i know. i dreamt that i was helping put together a show for her (i watched apprentice before going to bed last night and that was one of the team's tasks). right before she was going to go on stage i received a phone call from her doctor telling me that she had a huge growth in her stomach and he needed to talk to her ASAP. i gave her the phone and she started freaking out. conveniently i had a sonogram machine and i knew how to do an ultrasound. so i quickly put jelly all over her stomach (which was actually pretty big) and tried to look at the growth. it turned out to be a baby. she was preggo. BUT there was no amniotic fluid so we had to deliver the baby right then and there. pretty intense stuff eh?
Thursday, December 2, 2010
dreams
i have had pretty vivid dreams for years but it seem like now that i am pregnant (and up more in the night to go to the bathroom) i am remembering more dreams. some mornings i can remember 3 dreams from the night before. i thought that i would document some of my dreams since they are pretty odd.
on monday i saw one of my students at school and immediately asked her if her mom was ok. i had an intense feeling that something really bad had happened to her mom. well the student looked at me like i was slightly crazy and told me that her mom was fine. i realized that the reason i thought something was wrong was because i had dreamt that her mom had died....so weird!
2 nights ago i dreamt that i was at my house (not the house i live in now) alone one evening and this guy broke in and tried to attack me. then one of my sisters (in real life she is a colleague, not my sister) arrived and the guy forced me down the stairs to where she was. my "sister" saw me and said hi. the guy pushed me down the stairs and attacked my "sister". he slammed the back of her head into a counter. she passed out and was lying on the floor. then another one of my "sisters" came in (yup, another girl i work with in real life) and she was also attacked (her head was hit into the dryer). 2 more "sisters" came in (one is a girl from work and the other a girl i went to college with) and they were also knocked out but they both died. the guy then showed me pictures of the attack and a movie. he then uploaded it onto his blog and left. i checked on my sisters who were still alive. they were ok. it turned out that one of them was 31 weeks pregnant and didn't look pregnant at all (which made me angry because i was 17 weeks and showing way more). she had an ultrasound in our house right then and the baby was fine. none of us seemed very scared....at this point i woke up. i got up and when i went back to bed i dreamt it all over. the only difference was that when the attacker showed up he was offering to take pictures for me and my friends on my front lawn....i was trying to take a picture of us all but was struggling. i thanked him for helping us. then i realized that he wasn't using my camera, he was using the camera my attacker had used. i all of a sudden realized that it was the same man and that he was going to do the same thing as last time, and he did. (which makes no sense because all 4 of my "sisters" were alive during round 2 of the attack but i knew that 2 of them had died previously).
last night i dreamt that i was taking this HUGE truck to the CO-OP gas station but didn't know if it should have diesel or regular. so i tried calling steve but he wouldn't answer. then gas was pouring out of the top of the truck and spraying everywhere like rain. i kept thinking that i shouldn't be outside because the fumes would be bad for the baby but i really needed to fill up. then i noticed that it was full serve and was super frustrated that no one was there helping me.
on monday i saw one of my students at school and immediately asked her if her mom was ok. i had an intense feeling that something really bad had happened to her mom. well the student looked at me like i was slightly crazy and told me that her mom was fine. i realized that the reason i thought something was wrong was because i had dreamt that her mom had died....so weird!
2 nights ago i dreamt that i was at my house (not the house i live in now) alone one evening and this guy broke in and tried to attack me. then one of my sisters (in real life she is a colleague, not my sister) arrived and the guy forced me down the stairs to where she was. my "sister" saw me and said hi. the guy pushed me down the stairs and attacked my "sister". he slammed the back of her head into a counter. she passed out and was lying on the floor. then another one of my "sisters" came in (yup, another girl i work with in real life) and she was also attacked (her head was hit into the dryer). 2 more "sisters" came in (one is a girl from work and the other a girl i went to college with) and they were also knocked out but they both died. the guy then showed me pictures of the attack and a movie. he then uploaded it onto his blog and left. i checked on my sisters who were still alive. they were ok. it turned out that one of them was 31 weeks pregnant and didn't look pregnant at all (which made me angry because i was 17 weeks and showing way more). she had an ultrasound in our house right then and the baby was fine. none of us seemed very scared....at this point i woke up. i got up and when i went back to bed i dreamt it all over. the only difference was that when the attacker showed up he was offering to take pictures for me and my friends on my front lawn....i was trying to take a picture of us all but was struggling. i thanked him for helping us. then i realized that he wasn't using my camera, he was using the camera my attacker had used. i all of a sudden realized that it was the same man and that he was going to do the same thing as last time, and he did. (which makes no sense because all 4 of my "sisters" were alive during round 2 of the attack but i knew that 2 of them had died previously).
last night i dreamt that i was taking this HUGE truck to the CO-OP gas station but didn't know if it should have diesel or regular. so i tried calling steve but he wouldn't answer. then gas was pouring out of the top of the truck and spraying everywhere like rain. i kept thinking that i shouldn't be outside because the fumes would be bad for the baby but i really needed to fill up. then i noticed that it was full serve and was super frustrated that no one was there helping me.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
due date change
today i had a brief moment of complete shock and excitement. then logic hit me and that elation died. here's the story.
at the doctor's. 15 weeks today and excited to hear the heart beat. all was well. we heard it, it was pretty cool and very strong. woot woot!! then the doctor checked my dates again to see what my due date was going to be (this happens every time i have gone to the doctor. i know how far along i am and i know my dates so i don't need him to do this every time....is this what they always do?). he told me that i am 18 weeks and 2 days and that my due date is april 18th. WHAT??? YAY!!!! i am almost half way done! this is SO AWESOME!! then logic sinks in. last time my due date was may 11th. how did i skip 3 weeks? i had an ultrasound on oct. 13th and i was 10 weeks....that was 5 weeks ago. i am so confused. if i was 10 weeks last month how am i over 8 weeks further along? "8 weeks is just short of 2 months. it hasn't been 2 months!" steve and i spent a good 5-10 minutes explaining our case and how, sadly, i can't be that far along. the doctor remeasured my fundus and said that it's hard to measure on me (stupid tilted uterus!) so he can't totally tell. again, i went into my logic. he showed me the wheel thingy they use for dates and it said 18 weeks and 2 days. but i still don't care. i know i am right. after more talking he is convinced. he realized he was doing the wheel thing wrong and we had a good laugh (he was putting it as 13 weeks on oct. 10th, rather than 10 weeks on oct. 13th). SHOOT!! i almost wanted to just go along with it cause then i could tell everyone that i am 18 weeks and not 15....but really that wouldn't get me anywhere. i wouldn't have the baby earlier and the next ultrasound would show that he was wrong. oh well. it was exciting for a few seconds. he did change my due date....from may 11th to may 12th. dang. further away....but 12 is my fav number so whatever!
at the doctor's. 15 weeks today and excited to hear the heart beat. all was well. we heard it, it was pretty cool and very strong. woot woot!! then the doctor checked my dates again to see what my due date was going to be (this happens every time i have gone to the doctor. i know how far along i am and i know my dates so i don't need him to do this every time....is this what they always do?). he told me that i am 18 weeks and 2 days and that my due date is april 18th. WHAT??? YAY!!!! i am almost half way done! this is SO AWESOME!! then logic sinks in. last time my due date was may 11th. how did i skip 3 weeks? i had an ultrasound on oct. 13th and i was 10 weeks....that was 5 weeks ago. i am so confused. if i was 10 weeks last month how am i over 8 weeks further along? "8 weeks is just short of 2 months. it hasn't been 2 months!" steve and i spent a good 5-10 minutes explaining our case and how, sadly, i can't be that far along. the doctor remeasured my fundus and said that it's hard to measure on me (stupid tilted uterus!) so he can't totally tell. again, i went into my logic. he showed me the wheel thingy they use for dates and it said 18 weeks and 2 days. but i still don't care. i know i am right. after more talking he is convinced. he realized he was doing the wheel thing wrong and we had a good laugh (he was putting it as 13 weeks on oct. 10th, rather than 10 weeks on oct. 13th). SHOOT!! i almost wanted to just go along with it cause then i could tell everyone that i am 18 weeks and not 15....but really that wouldn't get me anywhere. i wouldn't have the baby earlier and the next ultrasound would show that he was wrong. oh well. it was exciting for a few seconds. he did change my due date....from may 11th to may 12th. dang. further away....but 12 is my fav number so whatever!
Monday, November 15, 2010
OPINION ALERT!!!
this might make a lot of women mad, but i am gonna say it anyways. besides this is MY blog and i can say whatever i want right? right? oh boy, i hope so.
for years now i have secretly HATED it when women say a certain thing. if i could roll my eyes at you without it being obviously rude, i would have. i probably was thinking it but smiling on the outside not knowing what to say. i wouldn't have wanted to lie and agree with you, but i also wouldn't have wanted to say what i am about to say to your face. i know, it's bad and pathetic of me. i finally feel like, because i am pregnant, that i can say this and no one can throw the "you've never been pregnant so what do you know?" thing in my face. i am now, hopefully, entitled to my opinion. here it goes.
why do women get all upset and annoyed when people say that they are pregnant for nine months? why do women feel the need to correct people and say "TEN months"?? seriously? i know it's gonna be a lllooooonnnngggg haul and women always want the baby out sooner than the little one is supposed to be born, and it's hard and tiring and many women are sick. i get it (well not fully, cause i haven't actually gotten to the end of a pregnancy before, but i am trying to put myself in their shoes). but why exaggerate? yes the logic is that a pregnancy lasts for 40 weeks. if you say that there are 4 weeks each month then that gives you 10 months. here is MY argument.
1.) you are considered pregnant from the first day of your last cycle. you hadn't even conceived at the point....not for another 2 weeks....so really it's at least 2 weeks less than the 40 weeks that you are actually pregnant.
2.) most women find out that they are pregnant 2 weeks after conception (i had pregnancy symptoms a week before i could even take a test, but that is rare and that did not happen in either of my 2 previous pregnancies). so really you only know about your pregnancy for 36 weeks of the so called "40". that, right there, knocks a month off.
3.) lets say we count the 2 weeks from conception to finding out that you are pregnant, lets even say that we count the 2 weeks prior to conception (which i TOTALLY don't understand. if those 2 weeks count then for every month that you have a cycle you are pregnant for 2 of those weeks). so we are back to the 40 weeks. first of all there is only 1 month in the WHOLE year that has only 4 weeks (28 days). all but 1 month have a minimum of 30 days. 40 weeks is 280 days. lets break this down by using my dates as an example.
5 of the months that i will be pregnant for have 31 days.
3 have 30 days.
1 has 28 days
if i were to go by the whole 'each month has 4 weeks (28 days)' thing then i would be skipping a bunch of days. 5 months that have 31 days has a total of 155 days. if i went on the logic of each month having 28 days then those five months would only have 140 days. i am skipping 15 days with that logic. three months with 30 days is 90 days. if i went with the 28 day theory it would be 84 days. again i am skipping days, this time it is 6 days. that is 21 days (3 weeks) in total that i am not counting. that is only 9 days short of a 30 day month, the 10th month that some women claim to be pregnant for.
here is where the possibility of too much info comes in, but i am sure most of you know how to do the math to figure this out on your own anyways so whatever. my last cycle began around august 11th. my due date is may 11th. that is NINE months. it is also 40 weeks. i have counted the weeks a bunch of times.
ok. this rant is ending, i promise.
you don't have to agree with me, i obviously don't agree with all you ladies out there, so go ahead and write a blog post about how much you disagree with me. i can take it. afterall, i have dished it out.
thanks for reading all of my craziness.
for years now i have secretly HATED it when women say a certain thing. if i could roll my eyes at you without it being obviously rude, i would have. i probably was thinking it but smiling on the outside not knowing what to say. i wouldn't have wanted to lie and agree with you, but i also wouldn't have wanted to say what i am about to say to your face. i know, it's bad and pathetic of me. i finally feel like, because i am pregnant, that i can say this and no one can throw the "you've never been pregnant so what do you know?" thing in my face. i am now, hopefully, entitled to my opinion. here it goes.
why do women get all upset and annoyed when people say that they are pregnant for nine months? why do women feel the need to correct people and say "TEN months"?? seriously? i know it's gonna be a lllooooonnnngggg haul and women always want the baby out sooner than the little one is supposed to be born, and it's hard and tiring and many women are sick. i get it (well not fully, cause i haven't actually gotten to the end of a pregnancy before, but i am trying to put myself in their shoes). but why exaggerate? yes the logic is that a pregnancy lasts for 40 weeks. if you say that there are 4 weeks each month then that gives you 10 months. here is MY argument.
1.) you are considered pregnant from the first day of your last cycle. you hadn't even conceived at the point....not for another 2 weeks....so really it's at least 2 weeks less than the 40 weeks that you are actually pregnant.
2.) most women find out that they are pregnant 2 weeks after conception (i had pregnancy symptoms a week before i could even take a test, but that is rare and that did not happen in either of my 2 previous pregnancies). so really you only know about your pregnancy for 36 weeks of the so called "40". that, right there, knocks a month off.
3.) lets say we count the 2 weeks from conception to finding out that you are pregnant, lets even say that we count the 2 weeks prior to conception (which i TOTALLY don't understand. if those 2 weeks count then for every month that you have a cycle you are pregnant for 2 of those weeks). so we are back to the 40 weeks. first of all there is only 1 month in the WHOLE year that has only 4 weeks (28 days). all but 1 month have a minimum of 30 days. 40 weeks is 280 days. lets break this down by using my dates as an example.
5 of the months that i will be pregnant for have 31 days.
3 have 30 days.
1 has 28 days
if i were to go by the whole 'each month has 4 weeks (28 days)' thing then i would be skipping a bunch of days. 5 months that have 31 days has a total of 155 days. if i went on the logic of each month having 28 days then those five months would only have 140 days. i am skipping 15 days with that logic. three months with 30 days is 90 days. if i went with the 28 day theory it would be 84 days. again i am skipping days, this time it is 6 days. that is 21 days (3 weeks) in total that i am not counting. that is only 9 days short of a 30 day month, the 10th month that some women claim to be pregnant for.
here is where the possibility of too much info comes in, but i am sure most of you know how to do the math to figure this out on your own anyways so whatever. my last cycle began around august 11th. my due date is may 11th. that is NINE months. it is also 40 weeks. i have counted the weeks a bunch of times.
ok. this rant is ending, i promise.
you don't have to agree with me, i obviously don't agree with all you ladies out there, so go ahead and write a blog post about how much you disagree with me. i can take it. afterall, i have dished it out.
thanks for reading all of my craziness.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
wheat and vomiting
ok, so over a month ago i read a section in my "what to expect when you're expecting" book about allergens. i kind of ignored it because it was talking about how if you had a peanut allergy then you should steer clear of peanuts while pregnant and nursing because if you eat that allergen your baby has a higher risk of having an allergy. i thought "i don't have and never have had any allergies, so let's move on". i have probably read that section twice since then and sort of skimmed it and forgot it.
today i was making my normal lunch (an apple and 2 rice cakes with melted cheese) and thinking about a comment that someone made to me about 2 weeks ago. this person said "lael, you're eating bread, i thought you only ate rice cakes?" i explained to that person that i do eat bread but prefer rice cakes because i had a wheat allergy for years and i grew accustom to having rice cakes instead of bread. as i was thinking about this today i realized I HAD AN ALLERGY!! lol. i am such an idiot. i called my mom and asked her a bunch of questions about this allergy of mine (i don't remember much about the symptoms because i was little. all i knew was that for years and years i couldn't eat wheat and as an adult i had issues with head aches when i would eat too much wheat). she told me that when i had a bunch of food introduced to me, fruit, veggies, meat and wheat, is when i started to get sick. they didn't know what was causing me to scream, cry and vomit at most meals. one day we were at a restaurant (i was under 2 years old at this point) and my mom gave me a piece of pizza crust to chew on and that was when i had a major attack. she didn't go into detail but i am imagining projectile vomit everywhere. yum yum. that was when my parents decided to take me off everything and introduce each food item slowly to figure out if it was wheat that was the issue. it was. from then until my late elementary years i only had rice cakes and rice bread, no form of wheat. i don't remember being allowed to eat wheat all of a sudden but apparently my parents slowly let me have small amounts of wheat until they could see that i was able to handle it.
so what does this mean? should i be cutting wheat out of my diet? honestly, my favourite meal lately is going to old spaghetti factory, ordering a bowl of minestrone soup (which has noodles in it) and eating lots of their free sourdough bread. AHHHHH. i am slightly panicking. i do NOT want our baby to have the allergy that i had (in part because i don't do vomit) or any allergy but i don't want to cut out wheat entirely if i don't need to. according to what i read it's more likely to pass allergies on while nursing...so that is slightly good news but it still isn't a guarantee either way. another thing it says is that i might not pass on the same allergy as i have, but because i am an "allergic mother" my child could have an allergy to peanuts, dairy products or many other foods. ugh. i guess i'm a gonna have to ask my doctor about this one. sometimes i think too much reading actually makes me more paranoid.
today i was making my normal lunch (an apple and 2 rice cakes with melted cheese) and thinking about a comment that someone made to me about 2 weeks ago. this person said "lael, you're eating bread, i thought you only ate rice cakes?" i explained to that person that i do eat bread but prefer rice cakes because i had a wheat allergy for years and i grew accustom to having rice cakes instead of bread. as i was thinking about this today i realized I HAD AN ALLERGY!! lol. i am such an idiot. i called my mom and asked her a bunch of questions about this allergy of mine (i don't remember much about the symptoms because i was little. all i knew was that for years and years i couldn't eat wheat and as an adult i had issues with head aches when i would eat too much wheat). she told me that when i had a bunch of food introduced to me, fruit, veggies, meat and wheat, is when i started to get sick. they didn't know what was causing me to scream, cry and vomit at most meals. one day we were at a restaurant (i was under 2 years old at this point) and my mom gave me a piece of pizza crust to chew on and that was when i had a major attack. she didn't go into detail but i am imagining projectile vomit everywhere. yum yum. that was when my parents decided to take me off everything and introduce each food item slowly to figure out if it was wheat that was the issue. it was. from then until my late elementary years i only had rice cakes and rice bread, no form of wheat. i don't remember being allowed to eat wheat all of a sudden but apparently my parents slowly let me have small amounts of wheat until they could see that i was able to handle it.
so what does this mean? should i be cutting wheat out of my diet? honestly, my favourite meal lately is going to old spaghetti factory, ordering a bowl of minestrone soup (which has noodles in it) and eating lots of their free sourdough bread. AHHHHH. i am slightly panicking. i do NOT want our baby to have the allergy that i had (in part because i don't do vomit) or any allergy but i don't want to cut out wheat entirely if i don't need to. according to what i read it's more likely to pass allergies on while nursing...so that is slightly good news but it still isn't a guarantee either way. another thing it says is that i might not pass on the same allergy as i have, but because i am an "allergic mother" my child could have an allergy to peanuts, dairy products or many other foods. ugh. i guess i'm a gonna have to ask my doctor about this one. sometimes i think too much reading actually makes me more paranoid.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
verbal insult
steve and i have had this ongoing disagreement/joke about how to pronounce the word "poor". i always say "p-or" and he says "p-oo-er". he is after me a lot for "mispronouncing" the word. i was beginning to actually believe that i was saying it wrong but i was too stubborn to admit it or change my ways. tonight he was at it again "it's not "P-OR" it's "P-OO-ER"!!"....whatever steve. so he decided to end this once and for all and find the pronunciation online. this is the link he found and played. basically it says "P-OR"!!!!! yup, that's right, i won. oh man it feels good!! it's been at least 2 years that he has been bugging me about this and now i can repay the favour by reminding him of this epic WIN for years to come.
oh and steve wants me to change my blog name to "verbal insult", hence this post's title. ;) yeah yeah steve, i bug you lots in here....but i equally....if not more often....make fun of myself.
oh and steve wants me to change my blog name to "verbal insult", hence this post's title. ;) yeah yeah steve, i bug you lots in here....but i equally....if not more often....make fun of myself.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
pregnant :D
yup. as you have all probably read on facebook i am pregnant....again. but this time is going much better! i had an ultrasound at 10 weeks and we saw the blob like thing that i was ensured was indeed a baby. we also saw the flickering of the heart beat. baby was busy moving around. it was so precious! i can't wait for the next ultrasound (at 18 weeks...i will be 13 weeks tomorrow). we will find out the gender and then start getting ready for this baby to arrive. the due date is may 11th. such a nice month for a birthday! steve is eager to take the guest room bed out of the future baby room and into the basement room. if he had his way that room would be empty and ready for baby furniture already. it's gonna be a fun 27 weeks to come!!!! :D
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