trying not to think this far ahead....

so i know delivery and whatever is going to not be a fun experience. i try not to think about it too much because i know i will probably panic and over plan (which often makes me more paniky until i feel like i have control of the situation....which i won't ever have control so why over plan?). well today i heard someone talk about delivery (on TV) in a different way, and...yeah...it's got me kinda freaked out. here is what was said (with some words changed to less offensive terms):

B: I wanna hear what kind of pain this is?
C: It's like a massive cramp that takes over your whole body and makes it so you can't move.
B: Why do people want to not do the drugs?
C: I have no idea.
B: I am all for the drugs.
Am I going to crap myself when I give birth?
C: Yes. (said with a big smile)
B: Great. I can't wait. (clearly sarcastic)
C: But the thing that nobody tells you about is afterwards.
B: It's a hot mess down there, right?
C: Yeah.
B: So you're like ice-packing your crotch and breast feeding your baby?
C: And like peeing yourself.
B: And peeing yourself?
C: Yeah, like when you laugh or sneeze. It's fun.

......need i say more?

OH and B stands for bethenny and C is for birth coach....so she must really know what she is talking about.

acupuncture

so a few weeks ago i went in for acupuncture. i had a somewhat odd acupuncture experience a few years ago so i was a little weary to try again. i decided to try someone new and female (last time i saw an asian man and i could barely understand what he was saying most of the time and that made for some awkward moments).

i went in to this appointment with expectations. seeing as i had done this acupuncture thing once before i had an idea of what it would entail. see i am not a big fan of needles. i have had plenty of blood tests in the past and i don't really mind it but i don't want to see the needle. if i don't see it i am totally fine. what i failed to take into consideration is that i am pregnant. being pregnant i do not lie on my stomach therefore i do not lie face down. i have had issues with my hip so i knew i wouldn't be on my back either. lying on my side meant that there would be a possibility that i would see needles. it started out ok. some in my hip, some in my ankles and knees. then she put some in my wrists (which were right by my head. i tried not to look at them). then she stuck one in the top of my HEAD!!! into my scalp (i wasn't a fan of that one)!! and her little quip about it was "don't let me forget to take that one out. haha" HAHA???? seriously? it's not funny. i kept counting how many needles she was putting in so that i could make sure the same number came out of my skin at the end. i was relieved that i couldn't see the needle in my scalp. but then she did the unthinkable.....she put one right between my eyebrows. there was no avoiding seeing that one. i tried to keep my eyes closed but i didn't want her to think that i was falling asleep or found it at all relaxing. apparently that spot is your "zen" spot....or something and it's suppose to relax you. HA! yeah right!

i went back for another treatment yesterday and she did the same thing again but did WAY more needles in my hip and low back. i, again, kept a count of how many went in. i also had some B12 injections done to help stop the muscle tension i have been experiencing in my one hip. all in all i had 28 needles poked into me yesterday. some hurt a little, some didn't hurt at all. lets hope this actually works!!!

11 step program

a facebook friend sent me this today. i had a good chuckle over it, but there was also a voice in my head saying "oh my word what am i doing?"

baby movement...kinda freakin me out

so our son is moving around a lot lately. lots of kicks and squirms. i was excited for this time to come but now that it's here....i am not sure i am loving in. this little guy is always really low when he kicks me and it always shocks me. sometimes it literally takes my breath away, but in a weird way! you know when your heart skips beats and it feels super weird and uncomfortable? that's how this feesl to me. it's not painful, just so odd and....and i don't know. there are no words. it freaks me out!! of course it is always good to know that the baby is moving cause that means that everything is good, right? but still, i am not sure i am going to really love all the moving around. is that bad? i feel slightly guilty feeling this way. maybe once i am used to it it won't bother me. let's hope.

another opinion needed....please!

ok so i need opinions. here are 3 that i am trying to choose from. which do YOU like the best??? (from this site)

st. barts noonie

green swirls noonie

serene blue noonie

if you do not have a goole account or can not vote on blogger please vote in facebook. i like opinions when i ask for them and i WILL take your suggestion into consideration. THANKS!!!

resolutions update

last year i made some goals, not resolutions and today was the first time i looked at them since i wrote them. haha. i for sure feel good about some of them. i recycle a lot more, i did the 3-4x a week exercise thing on and off until i started feeling all sick and nasty during the first trimester. i am also more involved with church, teaching in sunday school (kid connection at our church) 2 sundays a month. i still need to work on gossiping less but i am getting better and checking my thoughts before they spew out, so that's a start. i haven't bought any books for a while (steve bought me the new sophie kinsella book but she's one of my fav authors so i just HAD to have it, and i bought a baby book, but i am reading it) but i also haven't read anything other than baby books for a while either. the cooking thing was going better during the summer,....again with the excuses....when i was feeling all sick at the sight or smell of food the cooking kind of lessened. ok, it really lessened! BUT this week i have cooked the 2 nights that steve has been home for dinner. GO ME!! and i have a meal all planned for whenever he gets home tonight. finally the money goal....this has been happening whether i want it to or not. we have been on a rather strict (or at least i find it to be strict) budget so that we can afford baby stuff. since we are back to our cash budget i only have an allotted amount that i can spend and that's it. i usually run out of money each month but i have gotten smart. i take out half of each months money on the 1st and then if i run out it's all good because on the 15th i take out the other half. usually by the second week i am running low or completely out because i like going out for meals with friends or going to the movies or whatever. the budget has helped me to be more aware of where the money goes and to appreciate it more (cause i usually end up not having any....haha). i think i am going to avoid making any more goals. there is enough stuff coming my way that is going to be a challenge (you know with the baby and all that) so that's enough to tackle for now. it'll be a year of growth regardless.

christmas cookies

last christmas i was given a recipe for mint chocolate snowball cookies. i was pretty excited to make them......and eat them. :) i doubled the recipe and ended up with a TON of these cookies. i took a big tin of them to work and tried to pawn them off on people. 2 of the girls i work with helped me out and ate about 2 dozen that day. LOL. it was intense. since then they periodically talk about how yummy they were. when the christmas season hit both started asking me when i was going to make them again. i completely forgot. the last day of school came and i still hadn't made the cookies. so i invited the girls over to bake them with me and take their share home. only one of them could come but we had fun and made almost 3 dozen (which is what the recipe yields without being doubled....yeah....i had a lot of cookies last year). we made a big mess. one of the ingredients is "lots of icing sugar" and it's not kidding. the cookies are rolled in icing sugar before being baked and then rerolled when they come out or, like i did, you can sift icing sugar over them when hot. breanne took half of them home, i gave some to another friend and steve has been eating his way through what's left. baking is WAY more fun when it is done with someone and i think this is going to be a christmas tradition for years to come. :D

PS....most of that sugar fell off once the cookies had cooled. so don't let the picture deceive you.